[missing someone.]

Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. it's about the very moment when you're doing something and wishing they were right there with you.


there are many nights i lay in bed and wish i was cuddling my angel but i know he is being cuddled by those who love him and all is well. being with him makes all of that go away. [: i love my Doherty's
my two babies!! [: livvy gets jealous! lol

he really is watching football with me. it's his favorite. [:

my angel.

[have lovely eyes.]

“For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.” — - Audrey Hepburn
look for the good in people. it will help others see the good in you. <3

after baby A and I woke up from a nap. he was talking and laughing with me. it was so cute.


in the stroller at the zoo. he's not quite sure why he has to be awake. [:


his sapphire blue eyes!!


the elephant.

little Aidan was two months yesterday. we took him to the zoo. it was freezing cold but he was bundled up nice and warm so he was a trooper. i love him so much!! i can't believe how big he is getting.

photography.

here's just a few pictures from the past couple weeks. actually i think he was only 2 weeks old in these pictures so these are 5 weeks old haha. enjoy!
we have the same profile! ↓
look at his blue blue eyes. just like a sapphire.

hallelujah.

this is my perfect little family. i honestly cant remember life without these three people in my life, && i truly pray that i never have to live with out them.



every day is a miracle. i wish more peole would see that a take advantage of the moment. when you sit around waiting for something to happen, your waiting hopelessly, if you go out and make something happen, for one you will be happier, but secondly, it might actually happen! if you lose yourself in the service of others you will have nothing to complain about. [:

on a different note, a friend showed me a video on youtube that had the recording of the song hallelujah sang by john allred. i fell in love with the song and so now i've printed off the sheet music and i'm going to go learn how to play it on the piano. kind of excited. its been years i think since i learned a new song. hopefully i remember how to play. ;]

love to all! <3

just more love.

baby A is getting so big. a little bit ago, the doherty's took me with them on their family photo shoot and this is the picture i have seen so far. i cant wait to see more of them together.



I've visited a couple of times in his short life and it just seems surreal how perfect the situation is. it may be hard for outsiders to understand how it works with me being so involved with their life but to us, any other way would feel so wrong. it's amazing to know that because i decided to make choices that were right and started letting God help me in my life, he took on all my past pain, && helped me through the past month. everything is okay. Just liked God promised me it would be the night i decided to give my baby up for adoption. everything is more than okay. i am so blessed and Aidan is the most loved baby in the entire world! its amazing how i never thought i could love anything more than i love my family, or like my puppy, or my kitties. but the love i have for him is so strong and so unbreakable its absolutely indescribable. only a mother would know what i'm talking about.
he's a month old this oct. 11th, time flew way to fast and i have a feeling a better start cherishing the moments before they're all gone. i love my baby and his family.

Aidan Jacob Williams Doherty.

[mom and dad. jacob && barbie.]

this picture says it all to me. he will be loved more than he can take.
Born September 11, 2010 at 8:46 a.m.
8 lbs 6oz
21 1/4 inches long.
black hair
brown eyes [they have hints of green in them so i think they'll lighten as he gets older.]
my nose.
me and moms non existant lips.
and a soul so sweet it makes you warm inside when you look at him.
the angel never cries, and makes cute little squaking sounds when your not holding him close enough. he's gonna be a cuddler.
he is in boise with his parents and everything is going well over there. i will be visiting them shortly. i cant wait!! [:
here are a few of my favorite pictures:

[eyes wide open.]

[grandpa steve.]

[he likes his hands by his face.]

[grandma nat.]

[momma kelsey && aidan]

[auntie cortney.]

[precious aidan.]

[great auntie crissy.]

From God's arms, to my arms, to yours.

So many wrong decisions in my past,
I’m not quite sure
if I can trust my judgment anymore.
but lately I’ve been thinking,
Because it’s all I’ve had to do.
and in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
And maybe, you could tell your baby,
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.

If you choose to tell him,
That is, if he wants to know,
how the one who gave him life
could bear to let him go.
Just tell him there were sleepless nights,
I prayed and paced the floors,
and knew the only peace I’d find,
was if this boy was yours.
And maybe you could tell your baby
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.

This may not be the answer
for another girl like me.
But I’m not on a soapbox
saying how we all should be.
I’m just trusting in my feelings
and I’m trusting God above.
And I’m trusting you to give this baby,
both his mothers’ love.
And maybe, you could tell your baby
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.