life.

so it's not like anyone will read this so it doesnt really matter what i say. im getting lonely. i miss my missionary. he could always make me feel genuinely happy and better about myself. it's hard to be alone and surrounded by people at the same time but i manage to do it. . . i dont know how but i do. i am happy though. i have a very healthy little baby boy on the way and i cant wait to see his face when he arrives, but until then he can just cause me back aches. wow this is pointless. i'm done.