Aidan Jacob Williams Doherty.

[mom and dad. jacob && barbie.]

this picture says it all to me. he will be loved more than he can take.
Born September 11, 2010 at 8:46 a.m.
8 lbs 6oz
21 1/4 inches long.
black hair
brown eyes [they have hints of green in them so i think they'll lighten as he gets older.]
my nose.
me and moms non existant lips.
and a soul so sweet it makes you warm inside when you look at him.
the angel never cries, and makes cute little squaking sounds when your not holding him close enough. he's gonna be a cuddler.
he is in boise with his parents and everything is going well over there. i will be visiting them shortly. i cant wait!! [:
here are a few of my favorite pictures:

[eyes wide open.]

[grandpa steve.]

[he likes his hands by his face.]

[grandma nat.]

[momma kelsey && aidan]

[auntie cortney.]

[precious aidan.]

[great auntie crissy.]

From God's arms, to my arms, to yours.

So many wrong decisions in my past,
I’m not quite sure
if I can trust my judgment anymore.
but lately I’ve been thinking,
Because it’s all I’ve had to do.
and in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
And maybe, you could tell your baby,
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.

If you choose to tell him,
That is, if he wants to know,
how the one who gave him life
could bear to let him go.
Just tell him there were sleepless nights,
I prayed and paced the floors,
and knew the only peace I’d find,
was if this boy was yours.
And maybe you could tell your baby
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.

This may not be the answer
for another girl like me.
But I’m not on a soapbox
saying how we all should be.
I’m just trusting in my feelings
and I’m trusting God above.
And I’m trusting you to give this baby,
both his mothers’ love.
And maybe, you could tell your baby
when you love him so, that he’s been loved before,
by another.
From God’s arms, to my arms, to yours.

the [reasonable] countdown.

"[Una madre nascita pone le esigenze del suo bambino sopra i bisogni del suo cuore.]"

"a birth mother puts the needs of her child above the wants of her heart."

here are some baby bump pictures:

[i dare another pregnant teen to look this good 3 weeks && 2 days away from delivery.]
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just got back from the doctors: everything is normal, i'm right on track. should be having the baby boy within a month now. he's extremely head down and feet in ribs. he also likes to stick his butt in the air. it makes me look lopsided.:] its pretty cute though uncomfortable.
the world is ready for Gizmo to come!
now i wish he'd just come already. lol [22 days.]

sister trip. ♥

just sisters. . .

or twins.

you decide.

baby update.

so i just had another ultrasound. things went really well. Barbie, the adoptive mom, was there and it was way exciting for everyone. we checked the little guys heart out very good. [my dad was born with a hole in his heart or something to that matter.] the doctor was a pediatric radiologist so he said everything looked good so far! it was cool. its amazing how on this machine i could see through my belly and eveything in there and be able to pick out my baby's four chambers in his heart! and his cute little eyes and nose and adorable profile lips! He got chubby from the last ultrasound. his cheeks are alot bigger. over all it was good. things are going well with the pregnancy. i'm in pain alot of the time and traveling is so not my favorite thing to do. its crazy that today i only have 7 more weeks until the due date. technically he is full term at 37 weeks and i'm 33 so i could be done in a month, but my mom says dont get my hopes up for him coming early since she was on time or after the due date with all of us kids. anyway. just letting everyone know that things are on track here. :]

get excited!

okay. so i got an email response back from aaron cranford! so happy. right now. plus in about 4 hours i'm getting picked up by my family on their way through to go to the smith family reunion up in montana. :] happy days. it will be a lot o fun but i dont know how i feel about the whole camping thing for 4 days pregnant. hmmm oh well i guess. maybe i'll sleep in the car. :] but i've been picked up by everything and i know that our heavenly father won't let us be too sad for too long when we're trying to do the right thing. he'll see that. i just need to control my hormones. hahahaha ya right. well that's all for now. :]

life.

so it's not like anyone will read this so it doesnt really matter what i say. im getting lonely. i miss my missionary. he could always make me feel genuinely happy and better about myself. it's hard to be alone and surrounded by people at the same time but i manage to do it. . . i dont know how but i do. i am happy though. i have a very healthy little baby boy on the way and i cant wait to see his face when he arrives, but until then he can just cause me back aches. wow this is pointless. i'm done.